CHAOS!

I find myself thinking about you all the time, that was not supposed to happen. Afterall I am a 40+ year old woman and you are a baby. This was supposed to be fun, but all I can think about is being in your arms standing at the edge of the ocean wishing we could stay here forever. My head tells me NO, my heart on the other hand says YES! You were never supposed to say I love you but you said it and now here we are. Ok so where to from here? Do I listen to my head and run for my life or do I listen to my heart and hold on for the ride? Can't stop the chaos in my head, but the heart wants what it wants. My heart wants you!!!!!